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So, it is MARCH right now of senior year.  I don’t know… that just occurred to me, how not very much time is left of this year.  And first of all, I’m a little disappointed because I have been given the impression that senior year is supposed to be like, sweet.  But thus far it has sucked.  And second of all I’m feeling a sort of carpe diem attitude about the remainder of the year.  Because who the fuck cares anymore, right?  Only three months left in this place, may as well actually have fun.

Speaking of NOT having fun, there is this ongoing THING in my life, currently, which has permanently taken up residence in the “WTF?” region of my brain.  I am honestly bewildered by it, and am also pretty sick of it.  But I care about it too kind of so I wish it would work out.  However, at this point it’s looking like I’m the only ONE who cares about it, so I think I may just have to stop caring even though I don’t want to.  You know what I’m talking about?  Of course you do.  So. Frustrating.

In other news, new episodes of Gossip Girl air tomorrow night thank GOD.  I have something to look forward to.

Today is the day three years ago that my grandmom died.  I remember it SO DISTINCTLY, I like can’t even believe it has already been three years.  We had a mass today at my granddad’s house with the whole family there, which was pretty unbearable because like…my whole extended family in one house IS just unbearable, regardless of the solemnity of the occasion.  But it was a nice thing.  It’s pretty impressive to look around at my eighteen aunts and uncles and forty-something cousins, and to think of the matriarch of this gigantic group of people and how like, wherever she is now, she still has so many pieces of her left on earth.  It’s kind of sweet. 

I also visited my other grandmom today, because I sometimes go read to her on Sundays.  And I have decided that aging is a total bitch.  Seriously.  If I could just check out of here at around age 74, I am totally cool with that.  Because completely losing control of your existence seems…not that enjoyable to me.  I mean, Grandmom Ayres is making the best of it obviously, and her condition is still pretty dece for being 95, but like.  Getting old just seems like it sucks, it really does.

AN EXAMPLE of how getting old sucks, is that today I filed my TAXES.  How depressing is that???  But I actually get a sweet refund so it isn’t so bad I suppose.

Alright well this entry was pretty terrible, and full of some extremely random and pointless things.  But whaaat can you do.  It is now time to go to bed because I feel like I’m going to die. 

buenas noches.

PS:  I went to check on the word “aging” to make sure I spelled it right, because it was looking a little funky, and it TURNS OUT that it is correct to spell it either “aging” OR “ageing”.  Weird.  The English Language is a marvelous thing, my friends.